In previous blogs to blogged about my weight loss journey but here is a new one. It is weight loss I guess as I had a lot of weight lifted off of my soul.
I grew up "going" to church. I guess I went to socialize or just to show up. I come from a pretty religious family and I never took it serious. I want my kids and wife to go to church but I rarely went or when I did go I seemed distracted or bored. I lost my way. Hence many years later. I have not divulged much of this to anyone yet so here it is.
Last week was my lowest point. I was struggling and an emotional mess. I had pushed my family away and hurt the person I love more than anything in the world. I felt lonely and vulnerable. I only slept 5 hours in 4 days. I was running on empty. I was supposed to go home and sleep on Saturday night and found myself sleeping for just an hour and something woke me up and lead me to the local watering hole. I sat there for about an hour texting a couple friends who were trying to help me but I was too selfish to ask for it. Just as I was about to have another, this lady came in and sat next to me ordered a beer, took a sip, had a disgusting look on her face and put it down and walked out the door. I knew then I had to get up, go home and surrender myself to Jesus Christ the next day. I want to thank the angel who visited me on Saturday night.
Today is Sunday. I woke up with a mission to get my life back on track and win back the people I hurt most. I dressed myself and the kids and we went to Church. I had a sickening feeling all morning in my stomach. It was my demons trying to not get me to go. I really wanted to vomit before church and during the first half of assembly. I was sick. I was more vocal and attentive during service and it felt really good but the pains in me were hurting even more. I felt as if the sermon was speaking to me. Jesus came to him, kept ringing in my ears. Brother Dennis who I admire more now ask for people to come forward and I stepped forward, surrendering myself. I prayed with Brother Dennis and Associate Pastor and my pain was gone. I felt as if a ton of weight was lifted from me. I feel the best that I HAVE ever felt. I see things differently. Again I want to thank the Angel who visited me on Saturday night. I see my kids differently and most importantly I see Cheerful differently.
About 6 years ago, I was mowing and my wedding band broke in half. I had so much disrepect for those I love that I NEVER got a new one. Tomorrow I am GETTING a new one. I AM married and I need to have that respect for my wife.
It is still going to be an uphill battle for me everyday but I am ready for the challenge. I have never backed down nor quit. I still have lots to learn and I look forward to learning. As a new career unfolds this will help me find peace. This will help me be the Christian Leader of this Family. Please keep me in your prayers as I go through this new and important journey. Good night!
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
I have found my FIRE again!
Ok I started this blog last September and was able to get closer to my goals and then the holidays hit me hard. I am going to refer to them as my "eating season". I also switched some supplements that caused me to retain some major water weight. I am refocused more than ever now. I resubscribed my bodybugg and now I know once again how many calories I burn. I am committed to not one, not two but three programs and neither one of them are easy mamsy pamsy programs. Not only am I a coach with Beachbody but I am a Beachbody Club member. I am now on a meal plan that consist of REAL food and none of this rice cake junk. I had a omelet this morning with turkey sausage and lots of veggies and tomorrow its french toast and sausage. Its really good and its actually cheaper than Jenny Craig or Weight Watchers and its a better program, PERIOD!
I am done with my 90 days on Shakeology and proud to report that I am now in the normal range for cholesterol and off meds for the first time in 10+ years. My blood pressure is in the lower normal range and my doc thinks I may be coming off them soon. This stuff is amazing and I have never felt better. I am a user for life!
My programs...... In the morning after I take the kids to school I come home and get it going with TurboFire and RevAbs. Ok I am slow and uncoordinated but I have had the best time in the last few days with TurboFire and Chalene Johnson. It is really fun!!! RevAbs I am trying to get used to and it should be ok. RevAb Trainer Brett Hoebel was/is one of the "secret" trainers in the Biggest Loser. Then I go to work. I get home from work and its time to BRING IT!!! P90X!!!! Everyone has heard P90X and it does not disappoint!!! I was only moderately active yesterday and still burnt 4235 calories vs. last week in training sitting at a table all day and only burnt 2098 a day. I love my bodybugg. It makes hitting goals soooo much easier. My goal is 30,000 calories burned a week and not even going to step foot in the gym for 90 days. I am gonna prove to the skeptics that it can be done at home : )
Cheerful is on board and we are doing this or part of it together. I have since introduced her to the coaching side and hopefully it will allow her more freedom to stay home with the kids and focus on the family while holding us accountable and trying to inspire others. We are going to have a Beachbody party here at our house in February to display the different programs and supplements and the coaching side as well. NO PRESSURE to buy or join anything I promise. Bring your gym clothes and workout to something that you might like or try Shakeology, protein bars or recovery drinks.
I will blog once a week to publish my results, strengths and failures. It helps me in my accountability phase and get to my goals.
Brent
I am done with my 90 days on Shakeology and proud to report that I am now in the normal range for cholesterol and off meds for the first time in 10+ years. My blood pressure is in the lower normal range and my doc thinks I may be coming off them soon. This stuff is amazing and I have never felt better. I am a user for life!
My programs...... In the morning after I take the kids to school I come home and get it going with TurboFire and RevAbs. Ok I am slow and uncoordinated but I have had the best time in the last few days with TurboFire and Chalene Johnson. It is really fun!!! RevAbs I am trying to get used to and it should be ok. RevAb Trainer Brett Hoebel was/is one of the "secret" trainers in the Biggest Loser. Then I go to work. I get home from work and its time to BRING IT!!! P90X!!!! Everyone has heard P90X and it does not disappoint!!! I was only moderately active yesterday and still burnt 4235 calories vs. last week in training sitting at a table all day and only burnt 2098 a day. I love my bodybugg. It makes hitting goals soooo much easier. My goal is 30,000 calories burned a week and not even going to step foot in the gym for 90 days. I am gonna prove to the skeptics that it can be done at home : )
Cheerful is on board and we are doing this or part of it together. I have since introduced her to the coaching side and hopefully it will allow her more freedom to stay home with the kids and focus on the family while holding us accountable and trying to inspire others. We are going to have a Beachbody party here at our house in February to display the different programs and supplements and the coaching side as well. NO PRESSURE to buy or join anything I promise. Bring your gym clothes and workout to something that you might like or try Shakeology, protein bars or recovery drinks.
I will blog once a week to publish my results, strengths and failures. It helps me in my accountability phase and get to my goals.
Brent
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